Atypical Wednesday

Today is a day for the first time in a while where I didn’t force myself to do anything. I just followed what I felt like doing at the time.

I stayed in bed until past noon, until my hunger became unbearable. I got coffee and a pack of nuts. I am trying to lose my belly. I went back to bed after a shower and then did a little bit of work.

I keep getting distracted from work. I also don’t have a lot of work, either. Not much pressure.

Then I ran into a movie. It’s a movie available on Youtube called Before We Go, directed by Chris Evans. I honestly clicked the movie from seeing his face in the thumbnail, haha.

Anyways, here I am watching a movie without great expectations. It was a subtle movie, and the time frame is a single night. Two strangers meet and the woman whose purse gets stolen receives help from a man who cannot make himself attend his ex’s wedding reception.

Both of them get their closure unexpectedly. Sometimes you are meant to run into certain people.

I think after moving back home, I was a little excited for a while out of vengeance. Then I returned to my normal state. I have fasted most of the day today, so my mind is clear. No one is home, so I have the space to myself. From day until darkness I stay within the premise of my bed. My bed. I love my bed. It’s where I feel most comfortable.

In the end, the two say good-byes at the same place they met. The following lines I resonated most with were:

1. But you love him.
2. You are going to meet this girl, and you will think that she needs your help. You will then realize that you needed help more than she did.
3. You cannot let the person who loves you choose how you love.

Sometimes there are no explanations. You will reach a crossroad, and don’t forget that you always have a choice. You can run away, choose a new home, or decide to stay.

You always have a choice.