10/100 Older Sister
Having responsibility and promise as a reason, a must in life will give us greater will and strength in hard times. It is much more pressure once you are given those expected duties that come with a title. You do it even if you can’t help yourself, because the other person is even more helpless.
Dependency in relationships is a fine line from toxicity and connection. When it comes to finances, everything becomes sensitive. No matter who you are, money will always be a limit and a means of finding solutions in shorter periods of time.
It takes time to settle down as an adult and to have the final stage in relationships. Goals worth achieving take time. Time is a general word to cover up all the stress, fear, anxiety, struggles, lack of peace when someone goes through a major change and steps out of the cave of parents. When you really want to go, you don’t look back. You are not handed solutions, only small hints and a lot of barriers.
What is the purpose in the things you do everyday? Is it giving you better peace of mind in knowing your identity and taking steps towards your goals? How easily are you triggered to runaway and escape? Can you escape? Will escaping give you long-term peace?
The things that will give me long-term peace is security and the having freedom. I can’t be completely free in life with the roles and responsibilities, but to have the freedom to have more options. To be grounded from experience. In order to get there, I must make many sacrifices. Knowing the reason behind sacrifice makes a big difference. If you don’t have a good reason tied in with your own realizations, ideals and goals, the sacrifices you make will only daunt you and push you back.
What are some things that you cannot sacrifice? Do you wrap yourself in so much pride and ego that you cannot see clearly through the blunt hints that life throws?
Admitting reality. I wouldn’t call struggle or pain beautiful, but I chose the path. There’s a long way to go, but I know that the other one is broken, and that the path of my past is fading. This is the way. There’s no more time to question and doubt.
This time, I didn’t need to snooze. I knew what I had to do. I didn’t have to struggle with myself to get up, because the mind and heart have become better in sync. The reason is clear.